Diagnosis: Pulmonary Embolisms.

Yesterday I learned about PAIN.

Real honest to god all you can do is moan writhe and barf pain.

It started yesterday around lunch time with a small twinge in my lower back. It has since spread out to encompass my entire upper body.

This morning at four AM I finally gave in and told Lance that we needed to go to the hospital. I got to go in an ambulance because I couldnt get in the car.

After spending 13 hours in the emergency room today and having an MRI, two CT scans (one with dye, one without), multiple blood tests, and almost 50 mg of morphine they diagnosed "Pulmonary Embolisms" (which are blood clots) and they were able to further pin point the location of the Blood Clots to my LUNGS.

Breathing is a challenge, laying down is a challenge, sitting up is a challenge, using my arms is a challenge. EVERYTHING hurts.

They sent me home with 4 needles full of morphine, 15 percocette's and a bunch of immovane to help me sleep. I am so bloody stoned I dont have a clue what I am doing....but I am still not so high that I dont feel pain. This really sucks.

I have to go to the IV clinic for at least the next 3 days where they do a blood test daily to determine how thin my blood is, they will also inject me with a blood thinner called Fragmin and they will also tell me how many pills of Kudamin I am to take.

Fragmin and Kudamin are blood thinners. Blood thinners are used to make the clots "disappear". Kudamin will work on its own but because of where the clots are located there is SEVERE risk of the clots moving to my heart and/or brain and causing an embolism that will result in death, so they are speeding up the process with the treatments of Fragmin. I will be on the Kudamin for at least six months.

All I can say at this point is THANK GOD FOR EXTENDED HEALTH BENEFITS!!! Fragmin is $200 a shot before my prescription discount. It ended up being $19.00 a shot. *ugh* Lets hope I only need a few of them. Kudamin wasnt nearly as expensive. 100 pills after my prescription discount only cost $6.00.

Im scared.