Updates

It’s been a rough week. Therapy is starting to reveal more and more to me and I nightly curl up with my diary and write it all down and try to work some things through. I am learning more than I thought I would from people I never would’ve imagined I could relate to. Ironically, the woman I call ‘Ms.Toxic’ is the one I relate to the most…I am still working on becoming comfortable with that *lol*

This morning in Large group was a rough one for me. Today I had to say goodbye to Anthony. From my first day in the program, though I didn’t have any sessions with him, he made me feel comfortable and included during our breaks and lunches. He played games with me on Thursday’s and kept me laughing through my intense agony in “light” aerobics. Due to the restrictions put in place on us, we are not allowed to have outside relationships at any time with any of the people in our group, so today I had to say goodbye to him. I felt a healthy loss and while it was nice to recognize that I CAN establish attachments to people with boundaries, it is still sad that it has to be so final.

My Boyz are all still safe and bored. I sent them sand box toys *lol* Who ever builds the best sand castle will win a prize…now I’ve gotta think of a prize *lol* I also sent them each individual letters expressly telling them why I love them, Why I am proud of them, Why I value them and Why I cannot wait for them to be stateside and be at “The Rock” with me. I cannot wait to sit under a blanket of stars, watching the fire crackle and spit and listen to J strum his guitar while all of us just hum and sway along and sit so closely we are almost on top of each other…I miss them so much. Thank you to everyone that said words of prayer, or anything else, to help keep them safe. I appreciate (and so do they) the love and support you’ve shown.

Lance & I and our pets are doing great. Lance has been working a lot of OT lately, but that will stop after tomorrow (thank god) and then we can spend some time together. Ringo is growing and developing quite the little (obnoxious) personality as he settles into his new home. Pandora still hates Ringo, but she is healthy and fully recovered from her declawing (*whew*) and she is slowly starting to leave the bedroom and take back “her” house again. My tulips are starting to bud. I am so excited. I didn’t have a clue what I was doing when I planted them in November, but apparently I did it right because they are all sprouting and now their stems are pushing up and the buds are loosening. Ringo didn’t dig up / eat as many bulbs as I thought, though there are definite holes *lol*