Day One.

So, I started the treatment program today.

My oh so brilliant theory of remaining quiet and observe lasted all of 18 minutes before this psychiatrist ripped me open and pinned me down like a biology lab frog for an hour and 20 minutes in front of 43 people I still don’t know the names of. It was actually a really good conversation, but towards the end of the group she snipped “well aren’t you just the little intellectual” and smirked at me…well…she got an emotional reaction…I don’t think it was quite what she was expecting, but it pissed me off, and as she’s my go to DR for med’s and stuff, I cant hate the woman, so I had to tell her she pissed me off…and in doing so, she got a purely emotional based reaction out of me…which was obviously her goal...

Action group was a TOTAL mind fuck. Seriously, Tops could take lessons on how brilliantly this guy head fucked all of us.

The question was: List 3 positive attributes you feel you have that can help you through tough situations.

I said: humor, intelligence, determination.

Then we had to create a little skit demonstrating a tough situation and how those attributes would help us through it. I chose to do losing my wallet (‘cuz I couldn’t find my bank card over coffee break *lol*) and it’s a fairly stressful anxiety driven situation…I incorporated my 3 attributes, did what I was told and sat down as quickly as possible.

After everyone had done their little skits with their attributes, the shrink then pipes up with “All of the things you view as strengths are actually weaknesses and hinder you from learning anything from your crises’…” The entire group sat there in dead silence for about 5 minutes till I piped up with “well shit, wasn’t that just a rude mind fuck” and then everyone erupted in rage and it was chaos for the last 45 minutes of the action group.

The afternoon group was called Family Relations. It is a 6 week long stint, and it’s a focused controlled topic group. Today’s topic was CRISIS. How you handle crisis, how you potentially create more chaos, what you have to learn from crises’, the underlying thought process as to why we do what we do during crises’ and all that other good stuff. It was a good hour and a half.

The last hour of the day today was something called "Social Outing". Today we actually didn’t GO anywhere, we all hung out in the patient lounge and one of the group members taught us all about clay and how to mold stuff with it and keep it stuck together…it was fun…nice to wind down the day with just normal conversations and some laughter…